Truly Asia

Road Trip I

I can feel my throat drying, my forehead burning and my nose totally blocked. Woah hot & cold combo! But no, I c.a.n.n.o.t afford to succumb to the evil bacterias yet. I need to finish up my interim report by this week or else i will have to cut my wrist and die of excessive bleeding. Or in a simpler form - commit suicide. It's funny how just a few weeks back i pray and pray i'd fall sick as that i can get an mc and skip work for a day or two. Ironic. However, one thing remains and i'm almost positive it will never ever change. I h8 working! Somebody, Fuck this shit!

Once again, happy birthday to the boys!

Last friday night over @ Zouk.

I rushed over from Orchard Hotel halfway thru' the dinner that was kinda rude i know. But i really had to escape that place. Everyone was telling the girls to take care of me because i was lobster red from head to toe after a few cups. I had a hard time trying to defend myself. In the end i realised i was fighting a losing battle so i gave up. Zouk was mediocre even after bidding goodbye for such a long long time. It was the clique that made everything better that's all :>

Before i forget yet again, thank you x 1 million for the birthday wishes from everyone. Not to forget the presents and cakes too. Very much appreciated!

Oh hi, i am not dead. But perhaps half gone already because internship is sucking dry all my energy every week from Monday to Friday. Why is Monday so far from Friday and Friday so near to Monday? You can never imagine how much i dread each day waking up early for work to face the crazy office politics and random scoldings especially when you're seated beside the boss and opposite the big boss. You eh tahan? Not to mention the horrendous working environment. How i wish August 8 is gonna be tomorrow.

I am so tired. Physically and mentally. I hate meeting new people nowadays. I find it a chore to communicate with them so i always try to avoid mingling with new faces. There is nothing wrong with them, it's me. I am simply too tired to make new friends. Yknow, when you meet a new stranger you have to introduce yourself, where're you from, etc. Then, comes another stranger and you have to repeat the cycle again and again. The ice breaker part is too energy consuming. I AM LAZY TO BREAK THE ICE. Britbrit should organize a tutorial for me. Plus, i'm not acting myself recently. I don't even have the mood for clubbing. I just wanna spend my weekends lying on my bed, reading a book (k, maybe not), watching tv, online......

Whatever it is, i am not complaining. I am not.

There are two types of people in this world:

ones that are disappointed in me yet standing by all along and,

ones that are disappointed in me, turned their heads and off they go, away from my life.

To the first group of lovely babies,

I am sincerely apologetic over whatever i have let you down . You know you meant something to me. Each and everyone of you have a little space in my heart you can call home. You may not always be physically there, standing by me, but i know who i can count on through the difficult times i may encounter in the future. Thank you so much for your support all along. No vocabulary can describe how much all of your actions touches my heart. Tonight, no fancy language i shall display but a genuine Thank You from the bottom of my heart.

To the second group of friends,

I have always treated you with utmost respect and have always treasured our friendship. I may not be someone as important to you as you are to me therefore i concluded that might most probably be the reason as to why you chose to gave up on me when you failed to change me. I am confused. Why are you ditching me aside? So i presume you decided to let go of this friend of yours?

Naise

We need to talk.

Off your photograph goes out of my wallet. Then I hesitated. I struggled for awhile and in the end I placed it back to where it originally belongs, in the transparent pocket. I'm disappointed. Fucking disappointed. I don't have the slightly idea why are you doing this to me. I have done nothing to deserve the treatment I am receiving now. Did I make you feel ashame or have I pissed you off? Not that I have recalled. It hurts alot when I found out what actually took placed that day. So I pointed my fingers at the wrong victims all these while. I was mad at the wrong person. How could I have thought it was actually you who didn't want me to be there. Not just anyone else but you. Isn't it such a joke? I was laughing at myself when i was told the truth. Laughing at how naive I was when I used to think that you and me could be friends forever. Now that's an awful feeling.

清明节

if the world could remain

within a frame

like a printing on a wall,

i think we'd see the beauty and

then stand staring in awe.