What is wrong with everyone today. She, him, them and you decided to fail me all together on the same day. So i assume i am supposed to be at jp right at this moment but hell no, i'm facing my laptop right now at home feeling like the tiniest creature on earth because i wasn't informed?! Best four? I doubt so. I did tried my best to contact one after another but all i got was "I don't know". Ok fine. I am disappointed that's all. Things have changed i can tell i'm trying to save the situation but too late?

Fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkk.
Angst lil kid now switching tab back to Microsoft word for report.

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(04.04.10)
my bad.

i need to chiong report now zzzzzz cough cough

#105

Oh hi. Today marks an important date in my calendar of history because it's the first day of my muathafucking internship! But it's nothing exciting to anticipate especially after today because i felt cheated into coming over to my company. I was posted to Penjuru (where the hell?!?!??!) instead of the initial promised Batok. Mad angry. In case you have no idea why i am so pissed, Penjuru lane is unfortunately located in an industrial park which somehow resembles Tuas. So basically i'm working in a small office of a huge warehouse. The only way in is by the company bus which departures at 725am daily from je. If you missed it then good game, you gotta take SBS bus and walk in yourself. Good luck because it's gonna be a long journey and who knows you might accidentally get crushed by a container passing by. Good thing is the colleagues there are super friendly but still, how to blend in when i don't even have a desk of my own. I lazy to continue already, i woke up at 530am today hahahah super kiasu need to turn in soon baibai

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12.59am

I can't sleepppppppp.

Fail

Fail photo. Fail hair colour. Fail face. Fail background. Fail pose. FAILZXC BIG TIME.

It has been a routine since forever for me to anticipate the upcoming of Wed and Sat every week. I can cross my heart and swear to the god i don't like alcohol nor do i like the after effect of it. Yet i see myself gobbling down cup after cup, glass after glass every week regardless of being in or outside the clubs. I am no alcoholic i can assure you but to be honest i cannot find an exact reason to suggest why i find myself there weeks after weeks without fail. It's a question far too many have asked. My answer? I myself would like to know too.

Perhaps it's the ear piercing melody with the help of the alcohol that magically dispersed my trail of thoughts as soon as we hit the dancefloor and at the moment made me feel so light and stress-free. yknow that kinda feeling? It sucks to be me, really. Dancing to the beat of my favourite song has never been such a pleasure. So what is wrong when i decided to escape from being myself for a while? I must admit it's kinda stupid to harbor such thoughts because after the party ended yknow nothing have changed. You are still you. There are still problems awaiting for you to solve. It's true when they said life's a challenge. I'm not backing off but i just need a break sometimes. Everyone do, right? I know how to take care of myself, i really do. I can tell you in your face that i have never and will never get wasted in a club or anywhere else in the public and i am fucking proud of that. I have finally woke up if you know what that means and i assure no more troubles in the future. We are only young once so why not make it a blast and leave no regrets behind because regrets are for losers.

Enough of these, anymore longer would make it look like an essay. So see you party people at ph tmr!

Supafly was er......alright i guess? We first wasted a few hours outside drinking our Chivas from Holiday Inn hehehe I loike cheap thrills like these! Hit the dance floor for awhile before we retreated to the smoking area because the heat inside is really to the maximum. Then it was the drama mama with the bouncer because of a jacket (???) and pukes everywhere from random strangers and friends. I didn't catch the details because all these happened while i was stoning on the seat and nursing my aching thighs. HAHAH Sounds like a loser blah whatever.

I need to bounce off soon. Wedding dinner later wooooo Think shark's fin. I.CANNOT.WAIT.

One more week to internship....

KILL

ME

PLEASE

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