Anyway, my memory is like a 1GB thumb drive. In other words, really lousy so that explains why i can't pretty much recall what exactly happened during the first few months of 2009. Life probably just revolves around school, boyfriend, family and friends. Nothing much exciting or memorable happened i supposed if not it should be able to linger in my memory. Hmmm.
It was only in the later part of the year when things started to go a little haywire...
In June, The Lawn finally closed down after settling in the new location for a year. It was a pretty depressing news for me since it was the best boutique i've ever worked for. I didn't receive the news from my boss, i read it from his Facebook. Pretty weird uh. I haven't found a new job ever since ):
In August, i broke up with Lloyd. Well, i didn't want to write down his name here ever again but oh well, i guess i shouldn't be petty over that. It makes me sound like a loser. I don't wish to explain all over again what exactly took place. I am lazy to do that. You just need to know i used up all the tissues i can find in my house. No joke. Everyone was being nice during that difficult phase especially A, Ss, Yl, Hq, Mh, etc. Not forgetting my family. My sister offered me a her place to stay straight away when i called her randomly one day telling her i was bored. A got me an orea cheesecake when i told her i didn't had anything since the previous night. It was a really hard time. I had to juggle between exams and a breakup at that point. I wonder how he did that because i swear i didn't study more than 25% of what was supposed to be studied.
That aside, as soon as my exams ended, i started to get involved in the clubbing scene. The very first time since i got legal in May. Partying and partying and partying all night long even up till now. That was when i got closer to Wy and eventually she became my clubbing kaki and of course really good friends. Mummy was really upset whenever i'm over at clubs but mummy you should really trust me. I'll take care of myself i promise :> So please stop ganging up with sis to scold me. Tyvm.
Then in September, i lost my daddy forever to some heart related problems. You will never understand how hard it was for me to lose two guys that was once so important to me in my life over such a short span of time. It has been over a hundred days now and i thought i'm finally getting over the grief but no, why are my tearing rolling down my cheeks as i typed? I gotta admit i do miss daddy at times. I can still clearly remember how he looked like when he was lying down in the coffin. Everything was so surreal. From the moment at the hospital, looking at his ice cold body slowing turn from red to pale white then to purple, to the end of the wake, where his body gets cremated and we had to carry his ashes and photo back to the temple while calling his name repeatedly on our way there, i just couldn't believe daddy's gone for real. We've been heading to the temple frequently these few months doing many rituals for daddy. I hope he's doing fine up there in heaven. Oh gosh, i should stop crying now. I don't want to face my classmates with ugly swollen eyes on the first day of school tomorrow.
Moving on,
I felt like i've been losing my friends one by one. Even though i picked up new friends along the way, i didn't forget about every single one of you. You guys should know who you are. I don't know what went wrong. I have been pondering all day for quite some time already. But trust me, i still have no idea what exactly went wrong? ):
I hope 2010 would be nicer to me.
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