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I have so many thoughts in my head they are overpowering me. i wish i can talk to someone or just simply pen it down somewhere. But just when i wanted to, i always ended up staring at the a4 paper blankly. I just have no idea what should i write down. So i conclude that i actually cannot put together what exactly is going on in my mind up there. Perhaps they are merely thoughts with no meaning but these disturbing emo thoughts are bringing me down once again. I practically shouted at my classmates today and it was terrible. Ok, it wasn't that bad since they shouted back as well and we instantly became aunties in the market but that wasn't the point anyway. I'm having serious moodswing nowadays i supposed and it's not even pms. I am so confused by your actions dude. A small action from you got me thinking real hard, searching for any possible hidden meaning you might try to convey. It's annoying to be unable to comprehend. I am almost positive that i am actually lying to myself all this while. But i refuse to believe and this is driving me nuts. Oh god, give me a break.

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LAO NIANG IS FUCKING BOILING NAO, I CAN KILL ANYONE. WHY AM I SO BOTHERED BY ALL THESE WHEN YOU DON'T SEEM TO GIVE A FLYING FUCK? I H8 MYSELF FOR THAT. FOR HOW LONG MORE CAN I TAKE THIS BEFORE I COLLAPSE...